life

life is a road of confusion, pain, and happiness. sometimes pain opens a door of love and sometimes confusion opens a door of understandng and sometimes happiness opens a brand new door of pain. but you have to go through pain to be happy, you have to go through confusion to understand and you have to go through both to be happy. It's life... you have to deal with it... but i've learned that no matter what you go through there's always a silver lining. Every pain, every hurt, every cut, every bruise it will always heal with time... i may be upset. i may be unhappy, but that does not mean i will give up. it does not mean my life is over. it means it's time for a new beginning and time to start over. i have lost alot of people over this past year but it just made me realize who my true friends are and who are the fakes.... i have lost an entire family because of my ignorance but it made me realize who i really am and who i want to be. I have a new beginning, a fresh start and i am going to take advantage of it. just because i am upset is no reason to give up. i will be ok in time... i will be happy in time... i just have to get used to the fact that these people are no longer in my life....

Change of plans

so as you have probably noticed i havent posted much lately.... well thats because i have been living with my daddy in antioch... yes that is correct you heard me right. i am no longer living in blissful perfect danville... i am living in the ghetto antioch! ugh! but oh well i love my daddy so its worth it. i will be in town till friday the 22 then i am on my way back home. my plans have definatly changed but oh well....

boring

so i havent had much of an interesting life lately.... my life is kinda spiraling downhill and i cant seem to find the strength to stop it but oh well i can deal...i've been at the bottom of the hill before... i'm used to it... i really miss a few people who are currently not in my life but i can't do anything about it. that's nasically all that is going on... i'm currently depressed and bored out of my sane mind.... haha